It's 36 degrees right now. And it's snowing. And my husband of 4 years probably has cancer. 4 years ago today we got married. It was a good day. Good friends, music, food. Great cake. In August we'll have been together for 12 years. And Monday we found out he needs surgery to remove the mass in his colon. He is 32. He is the father of an amazing 2 year old. And our 3 year old who lives in heaven. He is my rock, my strength. He is the center of my heart, and we are going to fight like hell to get him healthy.