Living with the loss of stillbirth and learning to live in the sunshine of our new normal.

Friday, May 2, 2014


We finally got some sunshine today. We walked Sophia home from school.  Apparently,  our bodies can't handle so much fresh air.  We all fell asleep. The kids are still sleeping,  And it shows me just how loud the neighborhood is.  The windows are open and I think we're finally brushing winter off for good. (Which is a big deal! )

Thursday, May 1, 2014


There are times that I wish that Miles was able to nap without me holding him.  My house would be a little cleaner. I would be able to do some me stuff.  But then I would miss his smile when he wakes up and sees me.  I would miss his happy gurgles and his little hands reaching for my face. My house will stay messy.  My bows will go unmade. My baby will get mom's snuggles and kisses and whispered promises for as long as he needs them.