There are days that I just want to lie on the floor and close my eyes. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to think about anything, I just want to close my eyes and cease to exist for a while. Today is that day. But I have a sweet 3 year old sitting on my lap who wants me to watch Trolls with him, and wants to talk about magic. I have a 9 year old at school that I need to pick up in an hour. I have laundry and dishes and toilets to clean. I am thankful for the people and the things that keep me going, that force me to get out of bed on the days when I feel like I can't breathe. I am. But I also just want to lie down on the floor and close my eyes.