As silly as it seems, February sneaks up on me. I can feel it coming, often as soon as October. But the holidays speed the world up, things turn so quickly that I blink, and it's February. This heavy weight on my chest. The insomnia. Waking up in the middle of the night and looking around for someone who isn't there. I touch my children's faces while they sleep. I count their breaths. There is always someone missing. A heartbeat that thunders, but only I can hear it.
She would have been 8 this month. She would be halfway through second grade. She would have giggling friends, favorite clothes and movies. Her sister and brother would drive her crazy. She would roll her eyes at me like Sophia does. She would be her daddy's girl, like Sophia is. So many things that she should be.
So many times, I've looked at Miles when he's asleep, and have seen Charlotte's face. I always thought she'd have looked like me and Sophia, but I'm starting to realize that she was a mini Mike like Miles is. The cheeks and the lips and the nose, this is what she would have looked like if she had lived. If she had had the chance to be 14 months old. If she had had the chance to live.
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